i feel like badness in many ways
and i dont want to do things and am sad and i also have been sickish for weeks (plural!) and its not getting much better and maybe actually worse? and i need to go buy cough drops or something with the money i dont have. but also i cant miss days of school cuz making up hours is the devil (and hard to do if its a LOT of them) and ughhhhh
being alive and shit is so fucking hard. why am i so bad at it?
also i miss having friends.
shit shit im actually really not doing well. not as horrible as i could be doing, butlike.. i think its just getting worse? and i knew this was gonna happen again and now im in school and i cant afford this to happen. and god. why so soon? couldnt it have been like in the spring? that would at least be almost excusable. but my last really bad time was only in like september… soyeah. im basically nonfunctional. good. great. fabulous.