okay so sometimes i dont know what to do, and its really scary because im scared to get hurt and im scared i will do the hurting. im scared that im not good enough and im scared that i will make someone else feel the same way. im scared to let people in and im scared to be okay with who i am. im scared that someone will need me and i wont be able to help. im scared when i dont understand life and im scared that i will die. im scared when my stomach curls and my heart leaps and words turn into jumbled letters spilling from my mouth. im scared that i will lose control and im scared that im too boring. and im scared that i will fail. sometimes i just dont know what to do, and it can be really scary.